His Pursuit, a love story i am falling for 🥰

If you had told me a few years ago that I’d not only serve in church but also lead others, i would’ve laughed, a deep, forced laugh.

As a pastor’s kid, church wasn’t just familiar; it was home. But while my parents seemed to have found God in his house, i always felt like I was just wandering its halls.

Here’s how my leadership story unfolded;

I did everything I thought would bring me closer to Him. I prayed, fasted, read the Bible, sang the songs. I went through the motions. But no matter how hard I tried, God felt like someone standing just out of reach, visible to everyone else but hidden from me.

Eventually, i gave up.

But what I didn’t know then was this: God never stopped pursuing me.

A Whisper in the Silence

The ache of feeling distant from God stayed with me, even when I thought I’d walked away for good. I buried it under distractions and convinced myself I didn’t care. But every now and then, something would crack through the noise, a moment that felt like a whisper.

It started with little things: a sermon that seemed directed right at my heart, a friend’s question that lingered in my mind long after the conversation ended. Slowly, those whispers grew louder. They felt like tiny sparks, igniting something I thought had burned out long ago.

When I finally stopped running and turned back, i didn’t just find God waiting for me, i found myself.

The Work of Love

The surprising thing about falling for God’s love is that it’s not loud or dramatic. It’s quiet, personal, and transformative.

God didn’t rush me into some grand new life. Instead, he began by working on the parts of me I’d ignored for so long:

1. Rediscovering Character

One of the first lessons I had to confront was how much i had let my character bend to fit the people around me.

Take something as simple as punctuality. I used to value being on time, it mattered to me. But when people around me laughed it off or didn’t prioritize it, i followed their lead. I told myself it wasn’t a big deal, but deep down, I knew it was.

God showed me that character isn’t about convenience. It’s about holding fast to values that align with who he’s calling you to be, even when it feels uncomfortable.

2. Guarding My Heart

Another hard truth I had to face was how easily I justified small compromises, especially in relationships. I convinced myself that some interactions were harmless, but i knew they weren’t leading me closer to God.

God reminded me of a powerful truth: What i entertain today will shape who i become tomorrow.

If I didn’t learn to guard my heart now, how could i expect to live faithfully in the future?

3. Rethinking Leadership

Growing up, i thought leadership was about how others see you, titles, recognition, the spotlight. But as I’ve stepped into leading others in church, i’ve learned that true leadership is the opposite. It’s not about being served; it’s about serving others.

God has been teaching me that leadership starts with surrender. It’s letting go of control and trusting him to guide every step.

Surrender: The Hardest and Sweetest Lesson

Surrender doesn’t come naturally to me. I’m the kind of person who likes to plan every detail and make things happen. But through this journey, God has been teaching me a truth I never expected: Freedom begins where control ends.

Letting go has been one of the hardest things i’ve ever done, but it’s also where I’ve found the deepest peace. When i stopped trying to plan for every outcome, i began to see that His plans for me were so much better than anything i could have written for myself.

This love story hasn’t been perfect. It’s been messy, raw, and deeply humbling. But it’s also been beautiful.

God has taken the broken parts of my story, the doubts, the compromises, the wandering, and turned them into something I never thought I’d experience: hope.

And the best part? His pursuit of me was never about what I could do. It was always about who he is.

So here i am, learning to lead, learning to love, and learning to trust the one who never stopped pursuing me.

What about you? have you felt his pursuit in your life? Maybe, like me, you’ve been running or wrestling with doubt. Wherever you are, know this: He’s not done with you yet.

Because when God pursues, he does it with a love so persistent, so tender, that it changes everything.